Now, let me start by confessing that I would like to write more often. I would certainly not want to come to writing like this, as if visiting an emotional brothel (a term used by a friend that has stayed with me), while life becomes a swirl of emotions. When you do not know how to move or even to sit still, when that ache has it's own existence in your heart.
Then do i procrastinate writing because i am busy, or am i just plain lazy, or do i prefer dreaming to actually get down to write it down? Honestly, I have no clues. I guess my fingers are betrayed my my mind, that does not belong to anyone, not even to me!
The point where i am either clueless about or too deeply engrossed in my feelings, writing helps find me. The moments when feelings and thoughts become so enmeshed that you no longer know what you think and what you actually feel. Then there are moments when i am too sad, writing is a definite, no wait not definite but a therapeutic way to heal. Oh and i am never ever trying to deny that feeling. I would rather want to let it linger. That ways one heals something that still stays with you, for it inspires emotions of different kinds, makes you see life and people differently.
Then why should i write, pour myself out to the extent of being exposed...and share all that i may want just to hide in me. Why give all of you a glance of something that's so me that i rather feel possessive about it.
May be writing is no different than dancing, it is also an expression so personal that art and the artist are inseparable. Written word becomes the writer and writer lives in his words as dancer is nothing more than his/her dance. Dancer is also nothing while he/she is not dancing.The idea of writing and dancing is my own muse, but i still share it with you all, knowing some of you may love it or hate it.
I do dance and write for myself, first and foremost, the viewers and readers are subsequently part of my art. My art! look at that term, so selfish a venture and so self -satisfying that i am nothing without it, i do not feel anything without it It is not self -obsession, it simply is me.
Then do i procrastinate writing because i am busy, or am i just plain lazy, or do i prefer dreaming to actually get down to write it down? Honestly, I have no clues. I guess my fingers are betrayed my my mind, that does not belong to anyone, not even to me!
The point where i am either clueless about or too deeply engrossed in my feelings, writing helps find me. The moments when feelings and thoughts become so enmeshed that you no longer know what you think and what you actually feel. Then there are moments when i am too sad, writing is a definite, no wait not definite but a therapeutic way to heal. Oh and i am never ever trying to deny that feeling. I would rather want to let it linger. That ways one heals something that still stays with you, for it inspires emotions of different kinds, makes you see life and people differently.
Then why should i write, pour myself out to the extent of being exposed...and share all that i may want just to hide in me. Why give all of you a glance of something that's so me that i rather feel possessive about it.
May be writing is no different than dancing, it is also an expression so personal that art and the artist are inseparable. Written word becomes the writer and writer lives in his words as dancer is nothing more than his/her dance. Dancer is also nothing while he/she is not dancing.The idea of writing and dancing is my own muse, but i still share it with you all, knowing some of you may love it or hate it.
I do dance and write for myself, first and foremost, the viewers and readers are subsequently part of my art. My art! look at that term, so selfish a venture and so self -satisfying that i am nothing without it, i do not feel anything without it It is not self -obsession, it simply is me.
So beautifully expressed Ruchika.Looking forward to following your journey.
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