Disappointments have a way of getting to you..
Don't they! Just strike you when you are least expecting them and hit you like lightening, weigh you down like unrequited love and feel like the sadness of being woken up from a beautiful dream. And like all of these they are so real, that you feel them with a physical pain.
I can see raised eyebrows now, for i am not the kinds lots of my friends associate with the word disappointment. Now the word disappointment is also not a small one, it encompasses so many meanings - different to each one of us. Also, isn't it the maturity level we all yearn for, to have that perfect mask for ourselves and our lives, which we hardly drop, ever! The task to continue to look normal, follow a conventional life; look special and yet belong to the society, such perfection!
Beneath that we all have our share of sad memories, some unfinished tasks, unfulfilled dreams, unheard voices and a dash of disappointments.
I too have the choice to disown all that does not suit my image, that i may have so carefully portrayed and put up, but that does not change much for me. My life remains the same,for there is so much one can run away from one's own life, one's reality.
Despite all these heavy words, the feeling that's making me spit it all out and still smile as i write, is the life in me that says, "Go on Girl! there is yet a lot of life to live out there for you!"
If disappointments are the price i pay for living my life and loving myself, then i must say, it's not been a bad bargain so far! I have not taken the easy way out to turn to cynicism or to become a pessimist.
I still love with all my heart, i do smile with my eyes and my heart, i do believe when i dream of you, you actually miss me and i have so many dreams, that it's silly to let these disappointments disappoint me...
Don't they! Just strike you when you are least expecting them and hit you like lightening, weigh you down like unrequited love and feel like the sadness of being woken up from a beautiful dream. And like all of these they are so real, that you feel them with a physical pain.
I can see raised eyebrows now, for i am not the kinds lots of my friends associate with the word disappointment. Now the word disappointment is also not a small one, it encompasses so many meanings - different to each one of us. Also, isn't it the maturity level we all yearn for, to have that perfect mask for ourselves and our lives, which we hardly drop, ever! The task to continue to look normal, follow a conventional life; look special and yet belong to the society, such perfection!
Beneath that we all have our share of sad memories, some unfinished tasks, unfulfilled dreams, unheard voices and a dash of disappointments.
I too have the choice to disown all that does not suit my image, that i may have so carefully portrayed and put up, but that does not change much for me. My life remains the same,for there is so much one can run away from one's own life, one's reality.
Despite all these heavy words, the feeling that's making me spit it all out and still smile as i write, is the life in me that says, "Go on Girl! there is yet a lot of life to live out there for you!"
If disappointments are the price i pay for living my life and loving myself, then i must say, it's not been a bad bargain so far! I have not taken the easy way out to turn to cynicism or to become a pessimist.
I still love with all my heart, i do smile with my eyes and my heart, i do believe when i dream of you, you actually miss me and i have so many dreams, that it's silly to let these disappointments disappoint me...
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